Hi, I’m Bee!

And I never used to be content.

It wasn’t until my mid-twenties that I began to pave the path to my contentment after I finally had enough. From there, I embarked on a journey of self-discovery and improvement, bound and determined to figure out how to just be ok.

As I endured my years-long period of dark nights of the soul, traditional therapy all but failed me. Every therapist I had seemed to be nothing more than a glorified shoulder to cry on, and I rarely got any valuable lessons or insights from them. Instead, I painstakingly sought out any and all self-help content that I thought was applicable or worth trying. I spent dozens of miserable nights and days alone in my dark, dingy bedroom (like Bella from New Moon, IYKYK) contemplating if my life was worth living. I tried every dumb and humiliating exercise my therapists asked me to try. I tried looking in the mirror everyday and telling my reflection “I love you.” I tried talking to and nurturing my “inner child.”

I tried it all. Some of it helped, some of it didn’t, and some of it made it worse.

I was missing a pretty big piece of the puzzle for a very long time. Why didn’t affirmations and positive thinking make me feel better? Why couldn’t I ever let anything go? Why did I get triggered all time? Why couldn’t I help being inherently negative?

I was so tired of being this way, so why couldn’t I stop?

I realized it was because I had zero self-worth, zero self-respect, and zero compassion for myself. I was stuck in a seemingly endless maze of self-fulfilling prophecies and and self-hatred. I looked back on a lifetime, albeit a short one, of me getting in my own way, constantly concerned with the things I couldn’t control and never focused on the things I could change. I realized I was so discontent for all that time because I didn’t even like myself, let alone have a healthy relationship with myself. My self-sabotaging tendencies had been controlling my life and I didn’t realize I was the one letting that happen.

Once I finally hit this realization, and accepted the role I play in my own pain (in addition to external factors), my entire world transformed with time, lots of trial and error, and patience with myself. I changed the narrative I told about myself to others and myself, I changed my relationship with myself to a positive one, I made the very tough decision to change my attitude about people and life, I accepted my full range of emotions — including the “bad” ones, I reassessed my relationships and ended ones that no longer served me, and became the biggest advocate of “radical acceptance” that you’ll ever meet.

When I got on the other side of the biggest hurdle of this journey, I wanted to become the person I needed most during that time, the person all of my therapists and mentors failed to be.

I believe it’s not only my life’s calling, but my duty to serve as a healer. Think of me as the emotional version of a life coach: I will help you identify patterns and blocks in your life and guide you through breaking those cycles or deconstructing your blocks. As a healer and guide, it is my honor to help people find their contentment. If you’re ready, it is the most rewarding and enriching experience, and will set you up for success in all areas of life. The power is within you, and it’s my job to help you yield it.

I look forward to connecting with you!